Celebrating Life

Yesterday we mourned the demise of a friend, an acquaintance or a school mate.
Some students were affected while others carried on with their lives. Really, losses never strike us until they strike close.
With about a decade between the students and I, a handful of friends have already left me behind. Maybe it is age but there is perhaps, a better acceptance of such unfortunate incidents. Although the initial ain of loss will never be eradicated, it was at least buffered.

But I would never forget CF.
About a decade back, she disappeared from my/our lives, alledgedly murdered. It did not help that I actually saw her a week before her demise at a school performance. I had wanted to go up to her then and just say a word of 'hi'. But in the end, I decided not to when I saw her preoccupation with her clique and the crowd that separated us.
i didn't get to say hi and that thought lingered.

In my drawer lies the huge golden clip she gave to me when my folder was in a mess with paper astrewn. And with that, came the reminder that besides thinking of a loss, we should not forget about celebrating the living when emotions are tamed. Life moves on, just like the rising and setting of the sun. I am always glad for the family and friends around me and I am not afraid to express so to them because we are only alive in each instance. I have a peculiar dream a few years back and if it holds true perhaps, I would not be hanging around for too long. So, everyday I am happy because I see people I appreciate and care for everywhere - until I get upset by them - yet that only lasts so long. So try not to forget that 'hi' or smile as we celebrates life with people around us. As for CF, I willl always be glad that our paths have crossed and those memories that we shared.

Someone told me that I could have been more sensitive during lecture on Thurs.
But surely, someone who is upset may not choose to express it on his/her face and some of us have to remain strong for others.