Caring Attitude n I M Tired + Heartbroken (no More)

When you get plunge those emotions into your work to keep that passion alive, there is a lot more at stake because you are potentially subjected to burns and hemorrhage. And today, I felt so burnt.

How Much Care Can I Give?

When someone do well, I recognised their achievements and gave them a little pat on the back. When someone improved after putting in those hours of hard work, even when it is only a simple grade improvement I gave them a little pat too in recognition of their perservance. When someone fail to do well even after all those hard work, I sympathize because it break my heart to see their dismayed face - afterall, I have been through that stage myself before too.

But when someone did not do well and when I know that they have not been putting those efforts during term time, what do I say? Give a smile and say 'you can do better?'. Ridiculous. Some knew their lacklustre effort, candidly accepted the consequences of their actions and ready to put in those hours again - for these pple, I am more than willing to work hard along with them. But there are others who are in denial.

If I did not console does that mean that I do not care? The efforts during term time, the hints I dropped... who was there to listen and who decided that it is not important and turn a deaf ear to all the nagging? who then, is the not so clever one? Some of them run away when they see me, fleeing from the guilty conscious that eat at them. Am I to chase after them? Are they so egocentric that they only see themselves and not realizing that there are many others out there for whom I have to drop those running shoes and stay with to guide. Do you not realise that the responsibility is yours to seek help from the tutors? The tutors will not turn away you away and often, it is the student who choose to walk away.

Neither is care about giving words of encouragement and consoling others. Sometimes we have to be cruel and harsh to remind others what is important. Those that truly don't care, will not even be bothered, afterall, it is others' future, not ours. But do we do that? It is a choice we all make.

While the students tried so hard but did not reap the rewards (they believed they deserve) doesn't the same apply to the teachers as well? When we tried so hard but yet the students did not produce the results, are we not allowed to feel the disappointment? We also have our emotional turmoil to deal with.

Maybe I need to move on.